Community Highlights: Meet Hannah Haddadi of Mourning Light Divination

Today we’d like to introduce you to Hannah Haddadi.

Hi Hannah, can you start by introducing yourself? We’d love to learn more about how you got to where you are today?
I would say my story begins with my birth. I wavered between life and death seven weeks before my due date when my mother had to get an emergency c-section. I was born extremely premature, but due to modern medicine and the love that I was surrounded by in the hospital, I survived as a one-pound baby. I have often felt as though my choice to live was taken from me during this experience, and because of the touch and go during my arrival, I have always thought that I exist in two worlds: this earthly plane and the spirit plane. Balancing the two has been challenging for me, but ultimately it has given me unique experiences and gifts that I have grown to cherish as an adult. It was as a kid that the dead started visiting me in plain sight. They would pop up in mirrors, throw items from the basement stairs, and visit me in my dreams. It was terrifying back then because I was young and didn’t understand what was happening. I became obsessed with the paranormal in my teen years and would read ghost stories every minute I wasn’t doing homework. My curiosity was like a beacon of light to spirits.

Extraordinary things started happening, to where I eventually put away all the books and swore never to pick them up also. In my early 20’s, I began to become more involved with my spirituality, and I started realizing just how comfortable I was with death and that truly, it had always been that way. My curiosity about the dead was growing once again, and I had many questions about my spiritual path. By “accident,” I found a woman who called herself a Witch on the internet who talked about the wild feminine and wrote feverishly about her newfound life transformation, how she was dying to her old self and birthing a new.

I felt seen for the first time. I read her work like the word of the gospel every day, in secret, finding parts of myself I didn’t know were lost. Flash forward to my mid-20’s where I went on a girl’s mountain trip with a few of my best friends. This trip ended up being my “Coming into Witchdom,” if you will, causing me to come out of the broom closet and own myself as a Swedish/Persian Death Witch. I was finishing up my degree at Metropolitan State University in Integrative Health & Human Services and Counseling, which led me to get a job at an apothecary in town, Apothecary Tinctura, where I had met wise women and magical beings who understood my strange world. I had finally found a greater community who were interested in my experiences and instead of being scared of them. In this place, I was able to learn from some of the most amazing people and teachers and ultimately hone my own skills around transformation and death work. All of this support led me to finally starting my own business, Mourning Light Divination, which I launched this January of 2020. In my early 30’s, my business and life ask me to fully commit and again own my truth and embark on a new journey.

Would you say it’s been a smooth road, and if not, what are some of the biggest challenges you’ve faced along the way?
I would say that it has definitely not always been a smooth road. This work asks of me to indeed look at my own shadows, and honestly, it always has. Even as a child, I was always looking for what I wanted to work on internally and externally, so much so that it was damaging at times. I know transition, change, and death & rebirth so well that I don’t always understand how to be in the present moment. I don’t always know how to not be in the dark all the time, as it is where I feel most comfortable. I carry a lot of grief in my bones, and it can be such an extremely heavy feeling. My comfort with death has brought me to some challenging experiences, and internally, I’ve fought a lot with myself since I was young. However, it has all ultimately shown me how to be of better service to others in the end.

Thanks – so what else should our readers know about Mourning Light Divination?
My business, Mourning Light Divination, specializes in work around transition, change, grief, and life cycles, incorporating and offering mediumship, ancestral work, the discussion around magic, and spiritual coaching into my practice as well. I aspire to be a death doula at some point in my journey, someone who tends to those physically dying. I like to compare this work to my business as to say right now I am doing similar work but in the sense that I am helping the living continue living. A lot of my work is holding space for others to be exactly who they are, where they are in their journey. Together a client and I get to figure out how to nourish them best. One of my most favorite services that I offer is Metaphorical Funerals. These support a person in ceremonial space, to let go of what they do not want or can’t hold onto anymore.

Often, people who come for a funeral have already done a lot of work around an issue and need their helping guides and spirits to take the rest of it. That’s where I come in to facilitate this process in a safe container. I feel truly honored and humbled to be able to do this work. It is my life’s path and the fact that people trust me to hold this kind of space for them; warms my heart. I think that through my own personal experiences, I can see people in their grief, pain, and struggle, without judgment, as I have often been in their shoes. Sometimes you need someone else to guide you and tell you that you still have the light inside and that even if you can’t see it right now, your greater spiritual team can.

What’s next?
You bet I’ve got big changes! I am transitioning out of Apothecary Tinctura after five years as an employee on the floor and moving into only practitioner and teacher space. I’ll be doing walk-in Intuitive Mediumship sessions on Saturdays, all starting in the new year. I’ll be announcing other places that I’ll be working as a practitioner out of soon as it is time to give my business all that I can. It is time to trust myself 150%. I have an office space in Downtown Littleton that I’ll be working out of more, a beautiful attic-like space that is being cultivated with love. Ultimately my goals are to become a death doula at some point, and I’ve been ruminating on becoming a grief counselor to be able to officially bring that into my work. I have some other big dreams and ideas for Mourning Light Divination that I can’t quite release yet, but I am so looking forward to the future right now, though, at least as much as I can with everything going on in the world. I have so many things I want to do in life and with my business, the key is finding the time!

Pricing:

• Intuitive Mediumship Session (Virtual & In-person): $85 / 60- minutes
• Metaphorical Funeral/Transformation Magic Session (In-person Only): $125 / 90- minutes
• Spiritual Coaching (Virtual & In-person): $85 / 60- minutes

Contact Info:

• Email: hannah@mourninglightdivination.com
• Website: mourninglightdivination.com
• Instagram: @mourninglightdivination

Image Credits
Ceremonial Photos and Head shot by Niyankor Ajuaj / Model:: Ash Ferguson